I have this struggle in whether to believe you are always supposed to go deeper in life, or supposed to cover much ground and become a complete individual. My way of thinking says that there is only one way to become a complete individual and that is by pressing in to Christ and everything that He is and has given to us. I believe that I am to press into the truth that will set me free, and continue to abide, grow, strengthen, be enriched… all by pressing in to Him!
Then there comes the thought that seems to have been coming at me, that I must be balanced… and be accomplished at many things so that I can be above reproach. Let me just say, that I’m burnt from expanding where I’m not called to expand. I kind of hate taking my eyes off the vision so that I can foolishly chase accalades that will somehow increase my potential from reaching that vision. I find that when I am focused on serving the Lord, and knowing him that I am strehgthened, and have increased strength by others catching that vision and running with it.
I do truly believe that it is good to be mature, and well seasoned… balanced in life if you will. I also believe however that if God chooses to gift and grace someone a certain way, that it is your goal, your opportunity, your call to embrace and press in to that specific avenue of gifting. I think that of late the Lord has been testing me in many areas, and expanding me sphere of influence, and helping me to become a more complete individual… but when it comes to a point of draining out that first love… it’s gotta stop! There comes a point where doing stuff cuz somebody else thinks that you should do it… just isn’t a good idea. I’m specifically referring to people that surround, not people in authority. After all, authority is authority.
Main point… and btw: I will come back to this with Scripture… but I’m pretty tired now.
I think that there are many people that need to stay the course of who God has called them to be as a whole… and even if others beg youto come nye, you’ve gotta buckle down and serve and lead the exact place that you are graced to serve and lead. You also can’t change who you are for the moment, or for a season so that you can accomdate. I believe that God made each person unique, and that there is a special vocation for each person that creatively fits them with the people that they serve… it’s the hand of God!
So let’s stay the course… and guys… feel free to say no… to anything that pulls you away from who you are in Christ! You can’t be somebody else in Christ… only you.
… more thoughts later…
-Pete
