Peter McCarthy

I need his word, I was made to need it… I have yet to read it at the level that I am called… diligently. I very much need it. One part of me loves to utilize all that I read in the Scriptures, therefore how could I press in deeper if I am me who is lost, yet I know that the more I press in… the more I will be transformed and be able to carry that which I am being fed. The other side of me wants to just read the whole Bible right now, and be able to interpret and live it. But from what I have read in recent past here is one thing that I am learning.

Jesus loves to heal.  He really does.

He loves it when people have a need and they go to him and expect a response, He loves that.

He loves to contradict the ways of thinking that man has and go beyond human understanding into a realm of freedom, purpose, authority and truth.

Jesus loves the unloved, he loves to heal hearts, lands, nations, bodies, relationships. He loves to restore.. and he loves it when people obey.    I am so glad that I learned obedience growing up, it was tough… but I wish that I still had that connection of correction to show me what is right and punish me if I wavered from that standard.

His mercy is new every morning and great is his faithfulness…

Those are my raw thoughts.

-Pete

I have this struggle in whether to believe you are always supposed to go deeper in life, or supposed to cover much ground and become a complete individual. My way of thinking says that there is only one way to become a complete individual and that is by pressing in to Christ and everything that He is and has given to us. I believe that I am to press into the truth that will set me free, and continue to abide, grow, strengthen, be enriched… all by pressing in to Him!

Then there comes the thought that seems to have been coming at me, that I must be balanced… and be accomplished at many things so that I can be above reproach. Let me just say, that I’m burnt from expanding where I’m not called to expand. I kind of hate taking my eyes off the vision so that I can foolishly chase accalades that will somehow increase my potential from reaching that vision. I find that when I am focused on serving the Lord, and knowing him that I am strehgthened, and have increased strength by others catching that vision and running with it.

I do truly believe that it is good to be mature, and well seasoned… balanced in life if you will. I also believe however that if God chooses to gift and grace someone a certain way, that it is your goal, your opportunity, your call to embrace and press in to that specific avenue of gifting.  I think that of late the Lord has been testing me in many areas, and expanding me sphere of influence, and helping me to become a more complete individual… but when it comes to a point of draining out that first love… it’s gotta stop! There comes a point where doing stuff cuz somebody else thinks that you should do it… just isn’t a good idea. I’m specifically referring to people that surround, not people in authority. After all, authority is authority.

Main point… and btw: I will come back to this with Scripture… but I’m pretty tired now.

I think that there are many people that need to stay the course of who God has called them to be as a whole… and even if others beg youto come nye, you’ve gotta buckle down and serve and lead the exact place that you are graced to serve and lead. You also can’t change who you are for the moment, or for a season so that you can accomdate. I believe that God made each person unique, and that there is a special vocation for each person that creatively fits them with the people that they serve… it’s the hand of God!

So let’s stay the course… and guys… feel free to say no… to anything that pulls you away from who you are in Christ!  You can’t be somebody else in Christ… only you.

… more thoughts later…

-Pete